The Origin (Poetry)
Stardust aren't we all? All pieces of the cosmos made human for what? What is the purpose? To experience life, love, the joy of the planet itself? Or is there some greater prerogative, some meaning beyond that of 42, some reason for the daunting anxiety that overtakes our minds and emotions that make us ask what is it? What am I doing? Is it the right thing, is it my path? What is the Origin Story, and what comes after?
We start anew, babes in all matters. No notion of what came before, or what's to come just the now, and the needs of being. Sustenance an all encompassing word means more even now than it did in the beginning. Sustenance of the body, mind and spirit, of the nature and nurture culminating in our own cultivation of self.
But then life happens, and life is cruel in infinitely more ways easier seen than the boys that have to be found. No longer are we the brand new speck of stardust made human thriving and sponging the sustenance surrounding us. No now we are trying to survive the blights that plague us.
Years are lost to the trenches of chasms deeper than we can ever fathom taking our personalities and our true selves with it, pieces needed to be happy, pieces needed to love ourselves. Forcing us to gaze downwards into the dark never to see the stars again.
Then something changes, you survived you made it to the next chapter, you've awakened once more to what could be, what is, what will be and you see the stars for the first time in decades. You begin to see what yourself actually looks like, what motivates you, what you crave, and what you love.
So you put in the work; thousands of hours upon hours pouring yourself into research, study, relationships, all for the sake of yourself only stopping to make sure you still see the stars to remember what you came from in this infinitely vast cosmos. You make progress others have only dreamt possible and would take them a lifetime to achieve, so much so you become tasked with the most daunting of tasks.
To change history, and to walk a path never heard of prior. Daunting. Impossible. Not educated enough. Not powerful enough. Not enough research. Not known enough in the circles you're in. Successful can't happen. Imposter. Failure. Anxiety. Depression. Why you? All these are at the forefront because you were wrong about your path, you ended up burying your head in the abyss for too long trying to achieve something and straying far enough away that the stars were no longer guiding you. But what if?
What if? You ask yourself? What if I am all that I am? What if I am powerful enough?What if this is my path? What if it is for me to be the Daunting instead of being helpless and feeble. It dawns on you that this is to be your Origin Story, this is your new beginning, that you will change history, and you will be the first of your kind publicly known.
Daunting? Yes. But so are you.